I used to be terrified of my future self. I would think about what I would be like in five years, and I would worry about whether I was going to have my shit together. This was a big deal for me, because I had been in a relationship with someone I loved for eight years. But it all turned out well, and I now have a wonderful man and a beautiful home.
I wish I could say that I’ve lived a life as a happy person, but that’s far from the truth. For a while, I felt like I had the shit together, but then I discovered that I was so riddled with PTSD that I’d just have to suck it up and live like the person I was then. I did the best I could, and I hope that my new self does as well, because the world would be a better place without him.
Like most of you, I found that I was very, very happy living with my ex-husband. Although I did feel a lot of pain for a few years, I don’t think that I ever truly understood the pain that my ex’s life caused me. I didn’t understand that he was the one who’d been doing the things that I’d always thought I was doing. I thought that he was the person I’d always looked up to.
I think we all have the mistaken notion that we always act in our own best interest as opposed to the best interest of others. I’m not saying I always feel this way. But I feel that sometimes I fail to recognize the fact that other people’s interests and my own are not aligned. I know that people who get hurt are people who are often overlooked by society.
And that’s why I’m the other person’s best friend. If you have a good reason to be good, then I’m not saying you should have the worst of intentions. I’m saying you should have the best intentions.
I definitely think there’s a difference between acting in our own best interest and acting in the best interest of others. I’ve always been an advocate for people with special needs. I’ve known and worked with people who have Down Syndrome, Autism, and other special needs. And I’ve also known people who have Down Syndrome who can’t remember how to turn their dials.
But, as humans, we’re not perfect. We still have short memories, and we still make mistakes. A lot of people with disabilities forget that they have special needs when they have those who are more disabled, or even if they’re not disabled at all.
The other two main reasons people who have Down Syndrome and Autism are not able to remember how to turn their time clocks down. They probably wouldn’t remember the clocks themselves.
But this is also why they tend to remember when they do remember how to turn their dials down. It’s not that they’re actually trying to make it impossible for people with Down Syndrome to turn their dials down. It’s that they are not trying to make themselves forget they have special needs.
Meghan Nemzer is a woman with Down Syndrome and Autism, and a big fan of the Time Loop by Stephen King. She is, according to King, autistic which means she can’t be aware of her own actions. As she says in her video, in order to get control of her time, she has to learn to control her own actions and emotions. She also has some rather peculiar quirks, such as the fact that she only drinks green tea and wears pink lipstick.